Today I feel extremely compelled to get something off my chest. Things are about to get real right now. Extra real. So prepare yourselves. I had originally planned for this post to be one of the usuals, but some conversations with close friends recently have changed my heart. And inspired me again.
I have built my career on being real and authentic in an ironically materialistic and fake industry, and I think part of me has forgotten that in the past few months. It's crazy that I have held back from what I'm about to tell you for the reasons that I did. But I think you'll understand once I explain myself.
A lot of you have been asking what my living situation is like since I got married. To tell you the complete and honest truth, I have been holding back announcing this.
I wanted to come up with this awesome post, complete with awesome photos and an awesome, pretty Devon Rachel stamp of... bla bla bla bla bla bla bla. I sound like a stupid broken record! Well, life has gotten in the way. And you want to know the funny part? My complicated situation at the moment is the reason I haven't been able to put this awesome, fabulous shoot together. How ironic. Okay, I'll explain more now. Chandler and I wanted to wait to live together until we were married, so we had to decide what we wanted to do about this whole he's in TX and I'm in LA thing. Chandler's career is really taking off for him in Texas -- fortunately and unfortunately mine is taking off in a completely different place, LA. So as completely crazy as it sounds, we have made the decision to keep my apartment in LA and move in together in our apartment in Texas. We don't know how long this will last and you know what? We are playing it by ear: something that has been extremely hard for me to do in the past until I took this crazy leap of faith to move to LA. Basically, my life in the last 2.5 years has been a crazy whirlwind of faith, trust and playing it by ear. I spend most of my time with my husband (yay- finally!) but I have been traveling nearly every week-two weeks back in forth from Texas to LA. It's definitely a new thing. And it has not been the easiest!
In fact, all of these crazy changes: getting married, moving to Texas, but also living in LA, taking on an exciting but challenging work life have totally taken a toll on me over the past few months. The changes and balancing all of it, that's why I have been a little less present on here. Before I got married, things were so nuts and then after I got married they became more nuts, just in a different way. So I'm sitting here reflecting on the past few months and realizing that things are always going to be nuts. Just different kinds. And life is always a balancing act as we know. I have felt this weird pit in my stomach the past few months -- and I thought it was because I felt bad for taking some time to live my life a little. That's not entirely the case. I'm a perfectionist, so I'm bad about being hard on myself for taking a break, but I felt this pit in my stomach because I wasn't being 100% authentic and myself with you.
And I think that relates to all of us. No matter what your life story. For me, I had to just stop worrying about how pretty the photo shoot was or what time the post went live or how many hits it gets. I have to be myself. Because what fun is life if we all just post these
fake perfect scenarios? I'm not hating on beautifully styled content or anything like that -- because I absolutely live to create and style these kinds of things. But I feel so much better knowing that I am honest, real, and positive in this extremely negative world. I hope you know that I am back, baby. And you can count on this blabbing, realness every day of the week.
I hope you enjoy it!